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Taking this season to make measured improvements

Good Morning World!

It has been a little while since last I posted and it's time to re-enter this part of my life.

With the current season of COVID-19 virus upon us, the economy slowing down, people social distancing themselves to protect infection and flatten the curve, this is a wonderful time to take a breath and review life.

For me, this is a time to enjoy the slower pace of life and spend some time taking stock and evaluating myself.  Newly into my 40's, I have a decade ahead of me that will shape me in new and diverse ways, and set me up for living my best life yet.

In this time, I'm reviewing several things:

1.  Possessions - Do I really need everything I've amassed?
2.  Habits - am I living with and in integrity with my core values?  What are my core values?  How can I use these to make aligned decisions?
3.  Finances - did I do my homework to the best of my ability?  What can I learn about investing in this season of life?  What steps am I prioritizing to move…

ARGH!

Today.

I'm exasperated, exhausted, drained, at the end of my ropes and stressed out.

Why?

Because I've allowed myself to stretch too thin on several items that I have passion for.  I now no longer have the patience to play the political game involved with some of these items.  And, I'm also out of patience due to the fact that the group I'm working with does not put in effort and rely heavily on two people to complete everything but are super excited to stand in front of those people and take all the credit for the project.

More than anything, I have expectations that have not been met, hope and faith that has been let down, and I'm defeated by the need for control of others at the expense of doing what is right, even when it feels hard and bad to do it.  Allowing a personal relationship t cloud what needs to happen to save the business itself is taking it's toll on me, because I do not agree with the position of the other side on this matter.

As such, today, I…

Learning to Value Yourself

2018 has 365 days in it.

Each a gift in itself, though we forget about that part most of the time.

In the past 8 months, I've been learning a lot about myself. 

For example, I used to fill the gap of feeling inadequate and lonely in my life, by purchasing "things".  I'd wander a mall, an antique store, a market, a new town, and inevitably I'd find "things" to buy.  The trouble with that?  My home was full of stuff.  To the brim in some places.  And I didn't even remember some of the great things I had found for my home. 

Then, you go through a tough time, packing all of your belongings up into boxes and moving out of the place you called home and setting off on your own.  The task of unpacking your life into this new space is gloriously freeing and fulfilling.  So, I stopped trying to fill in the voids I felt in life with things, and started unpacking my life.

I got down and dirty with myself and those boxes.  I learned I hold onto things hoping to …

Sometimes You Just Have To Listen To Your Body

We are beings that have lists and goals and tasks to do.  We GO-GO-GO for as long as we can and because we "have to" or because we have to.

Sometimes though, we really need to listen to our body.

This past weekend, and in fact the last 2 weeks, I've been tired, fighting some sort of illness but never quite getting it, and I've been exhausted.  Like, bone tired, sleeping 17 hours a day exhausted.

This past weekend was good.  I didn't feel like doing anything even though I had a pile to accomplish.

I got a few things done, but I was really tired.  Moreso than I had thought.  Case in point, I awoke Sunday at8:30am.  Was up and doing things, went to lay down on the bed to take a moment to contemplate what I was going to do with my day, stretch a little, and apparently feel asleep.  I woke up again at 1pm.  What?! 

Turns out my exhaustion levels were still quite high.  I can say that I am very happy with the tasks I did manage to get done this weekend.  My bedroom is …

Cooking with Butane!

Sometimes life gets us so caught up in the minutia that we lose sight of our goals.

Sometimes we allow life to catch us up that way so we can hide from the hard work it takes to get to those goals.

Sometimes the goals we set are truly what we want but we aren't ready to do the hard work to get to them, and we do not have a support system in place to help us get there.

When it all starts clicking.  When you've found the people to cheer you on and help you navigate the difficulty life sends you way.  When you've got your head around what the path to the goal looks like and you start walking that path and ticking off the little tasks that will get you there.  When ALL of these things are in place and are all heading in the same direction, the goal starts seemingly to work for it's own achievement.

It stops feeling hard.  It stops feeling overwhelming.  It stops feeling like it's a pain in your life to get this down.  You understand the sacrifice that goes into it and …

How To Support Yourself When You Don't Have Support

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This topic came up a little while ago.  A wonderful commentor mentioned that they were struggling with this because they didn't feel like there was support for them outside of themselves.

So, what do you do if you feel this way?

First thing, for me, while I was feeling this way, was to find one person that you could talk to about it.  A co-worker, a friend, an acquaintance that you wanted to become a friend, and sometimes even a complete stranger.

For a while, I was my own motivator.  I would sit with my planner, and my list of things I wanted to do in my lifetime (experiences etc.) and projects and goals I had.  I would write them all out on individual lists and get everything set up.  I would carry them around with me.  And I'd pick two things that I could accomplish in the year ahead.  Just two.  And then, when I was bored, required a little direction I'd pull out those lists and pick another thing.

In my planner, I would look ahead through the year and leave myself mes…

Concerted Steps to the Greater Whole

To do List as of this morning:

1) Put laundry away from basket
2) Review files for stale documents
3) File those documents that need to be filed from the bag in the living room and the bag in the bedroom
4) Review books on shelves for purging/reading list creation
5) Prepare shred pile
6) Clean truck of car
7) Get snow brush from car and transfer to SUV

The document review turned into a review/purging of 2 morn boxes of stuff from the basement as well.  Releasing 18% of my belongs is going quite well so far.  The recycling boxes are filling up much more than they have in the past, I have a great shred/burn documentation pile that is ready for release and I'm condensing things with notes of how to best display or utilize as I go. 

There are 5 boxes of books/CD's/scrapbooks that cannot currently be put into homes because the available shelving is not equipped to handle what is still boxed up.  Having said that, 5 boxes condensed from 10 is a wonderful thing.  I know what is in each …