Thursday, February 06, 2014

BOOM! Month 2

Wow does time ever fly when you are working solidly towards your goals!

Welcome to month 2 of 2014.

I have lost about 17 pounds since Dec. 1, 2013.  I also measured myself last night and found that from Jan. 6 to Feb. 5, I've lost 17 inches of fluff!

Fluff is what I'm calling the fluffy bits all over my body that aren't rock solid.  I'm happy!  I'm down nearly 2 full pant sizes in 2 months!  WOO!

Now, onto my financials.  I'm starting again with a lot of leg work and taking the time to really understand myself and my triggers so I can end the cycles.

It's proving to take a little more time than I had thought.  No biggie.  I'm making payments and knocking off those numbers.

I'll be updating things on the blog as well.  I have that planned for the 3-day family day weekend coming I'm booked up with my exercise time and commitments until then.

Loving every second of this year so far.

This month, the song is Keep Singing My Song - by Christina Aguilera.

Listen to the lyrics.  Have a moment with it.  The first lines say it all.

"Singing My Song"

Oohhh, Yeah, Oooh Huh
I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody's gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
So I decided right here and now that my outlooks gotta change

That's why I'm gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I've cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won't let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every lesson completely
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song

I never wanna dwell on my pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering all of the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day

Cos I'm about to
Say goodbye to every single lie
& All the fears I've held too long inside
Everytime I felt I could try
All the negativity I had inside

For too long I've been struggling. I couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feeling strong and moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can't succeed in taking my inner peace
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I'm gonna carry on
I'm gonna keep on singing my song

Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn't able to see
All the good around me
They wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe

I'm human, I ain't able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time

I'm human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heave above

I've made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what

I'm gonna carry on & keep on singing my song.....

(They can't take anything from me)

I believe that they can do what they wanna.
Say what they wanna say

(They can say what they wanna)

But I'm gonna keep on
(Keep on )
I believe it
That they can take from me
But they can't take my inner peace

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah,

Say what you wanan say, but I'm gonna sing my song
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Make a decision today to go get that thing you want so damn badly.  Make a decision to go and knock that goal of yours right out of the ball park. 

You've got this.  Everything you are doing will get you to your goal.  Patience, time and perserverence will get you there.  Keep doing it.  You'll wake up one day and realize you are about 2 seconds fromt he finish line and all you have to do is reach out and take it.

Friday, January 17, 2014

How is your Inner Voice Doing?

I've changed my tone a little, and my focus a little for this New Year.  I'm so tired of the old me!

A couple of days ago I introduced a song of the month.  Did you take a look at it?  Thoughts?

I'm writing today to discuss how we handle certain items in life.  I am on a journey to improve my health.  In doing so, I need to slowly start teaching my inner voice to speak more eloquently to me.

Our inner voice is there to help us through things.  It also has a nasty, developed habit, of berating us.  I belong to a forum on facebook for a program I'm working through.  Often times there are posts from people on the same plan who are having low moments and need a pick-me-up.  Most of the time those low moments reveal how that person is speaking to themselves.
Many of us do not understand that we are actually quite competitive in nature.  When in a weight-loss forum, we get upset when our 2 pounds gets bested by a person that lost 5 or 8 pounds in the same time frame, forgetting entirely that that person's body is not our body.

So you get posts that sound a lot like  "Week number 2 weigh in and I only lost 3 pounds this week."  That same person will post something that sounds like "Gosh I wish I had your body random stranger that just posted they lost 10 pounds in that same week."

Here's what I've learned so far.  I have a weight goal for myself.  How I get there is entirely my own journey.  I can't give you 5 pounds to lose for me, or you over there 3 pounds to lose for me, or have you sitting there sweat for 5 hours to drop another 3 pounds for me.  I have to do all of that alone.

I can track my progress by my scale.  It tells me what I weigh at the exact moment I step on it.  It doesn't know that I'm wearing 3 pounds of cloths today and yesterday when I got on it, I was naked.  It doesn't know that I've run a 5km today, or that I ate a chocolate bar.  It only can tell me the weight of my person (cloths, earrings, jewelry, glasses, belt, bloat, and all) at the exact moment I stand on it.  It has no idea how hard I've been working, that I've been following my eating plan to the exact letter, that I've had 13 glasses of water today, that I have to pee but I got on the scale first, how many bathroom stops I've had to make to void my body today, that work was stressful and I really really want to yell at someone just for being stupid.  The scale knows nothing of this. 

Just like it knows nothing of how kind, caring, considerate, pretty, tall, lovable, determined, passionate, resolved, that I just ran a 5km, that my right hip hurts, or that I'm having an amazing day.  The scale doesn't define me.  It just does it's job and provides a number. 

I am not defined by this number.  It simply tells me what I weigh.  It doesn't tell me how much is lean muscle and how much is fat.  Only one of those super special, kind of expensive ones that require you to not have socks on because it sends a little electromagnetic wave through you to tell will tell you this.  Most scales in your household won't be able to tell you anything but a number. 

You are so much more than a number.  You don't see people walking around carrying a cloud with the little bubbly things attached to their heads constantly displaying their weight in it do you?  Nope, that is exclusively part of that inner voice in your head that berates you because you weigh 205 pounds instead of 160 pounds. 

Here's the deal.  My inner voice, on this particular portion of my journey has been told to [fill in appropriate saying here] because I'm moving my body with purpose and am not defined by my weight.  Period. 

I have a goal because I've worked with my doctors to discuss what would be a healthy number for me and I've set a goal to go and get it.  I'm doing it in a healthy manner and making the decision to improve my entire life so that there will be a point when I eat a dang chocolate chip cookie and enjoy only one and will not have guilt associated with it or immediately think that I'll have to do an hour in some sort of physical activity just so my body doesn't store it like baggage on my stomach. 

My inner voice will be cheering me through my activities while I do them and will become my biggest supporter instead of my biggest critic. 

My inner voice is in obedience school!  And my body is in training.  How if your inner voice doing?